Count Your Blessings

Alright... I must admit it. I was angry this am. Got some news from a family member and although exciting news, it reminded me of my deepest, darkest desires. A baby.... So being totally honest, I moped around the house, trudged to the first service and sat next to my daughter Zoe. And then I heard Him... He has done this many times this year. He has spoken to me. I can't believe it, understand why, and yet I feel soooo priviledged. He spoke to me through the song "Count Your Blessings." I stood there about to cry and looked over at one of my biggest blessings. He has given me the most precious daughter and a husband that loves me. And most importantly, HE LOVES ME... Enough to talk to me, to let me know HE understands my deepest, darkest desire and He wants me to trust Him. That if I never have another child, I am blessed with the child that I do have and a God who listens to me even when I am angry... Even when I am frustrated and upset because someone else, younger than me is expecting. I am LOVED. I heard his voice and am so glad that He loves me even when I am unlovable! So this is open and honest... Which is what we want for Hardin... If anyone else is struggling in this, I want you to trust Him.. It is very hard sometimes especially when you hear of others... But remember, He loves you and puts His arms around you! THANK YOU GOD!